Until Next Time,
Just because We Do It Doesn’t Mean That We Like It
OK FINE, I suppose that there’s more to it than that, but I’ll be damned if we can’t be shrilly loud. Also, yeah, I’m making fun of it, just because we do it doesn’t mean that we like it. For whatever reason that still perplex me, us autistics speak rather loudly. This may be universal, but we’re especially crap conversationally in groups.
Autistic Group Conversations
What I mean by this is that for me at least conversations feel like quick time events in video games. What I mean by this is that we may want to say something, but don’t want to interrupt the pre established conversation BUT don’t want to wait for our lives to be over(!) before we’re able to enter the conversation. When I’m in a conversation (especially with newer people) I constantly overthink what I’m going to say to make not just a good first impression., but the BEST first impression.
I don’t mean that in a narcissistic way as much as a cloyingly annoying overly analytical one which can be very exhausting. That exhaustion can also lead to annoying and draining stress headaches.
Autism and Drinking
Therefore, we tend to isolate in social circumstances especially social circumstances without intoxicants. That sounds bad and it probably is, but it can just be so damn socially overwhelming traditionally that that lessening of the mind can be freeing for us of the legal drinking age.
On the other end, with our lack of social understanding and general shamelessness alcohol can largely make us the funny guy/gal at the party/gathering/ Or we’re annoyingly louder than most upon drinking.
However, awkward silences can also cause us to overthink as we or at least I (especially with someone that we really like/are into) don’t want to screw things up but don’t have that mental social guideline that “normies” have making almost any situation with another person weird.
Autism and Syncing
I’m hoping that this post is making sense as it’s like The Matrix in that it’s easier to be shown then to be discussed. However, to make things more complicated, this in no way means that we DON’T want to hang out with the people that we’re super into.
That energy (especially when we really feel synced up conversationally) can be almost like a drug to us. To point to my squareness, I’ve never personally tried it, but I’d imagine it’d be something akin to ecstasy regarding really syncing up with someone socially.
Suffice to say, we can also be fairly one note conversationally at times. However, that tends to be more of a starting/launching point conversationally for us. I suppose it’s our obsession (which differs on the individual) which we may get lost in discussing, but if we find a link from conversation about our obsession to a conversation that you’d prefer we’ll probably take it.
Though we can also be stubborn, so please bear with us. On that note, I hope that this article has clarified a peculiarity of autism.